I think the girls are attracted to me because they can relate to me. The girls are nice when you're in my situation, but since I'm in here [in jail] I spend more time writing to them about the relationship, rather than living it, but there are good friendships formed never-the-less.
My mother and father used to take me to church in Mexico and Texas, wer I used to live. The huge figures of saints and crucifixions. Religion played a big role in my life.
The media had portrayed me as a cold-hearted, ruthless monster, but I'm really not that way. I'm very down to earth. So, at that time I let people think whatever they wanted to. Tou see or hear about the crimes and then imagine what kind of individual was behind them.
In today's society, people use those qualities - I call them qualities - for all things. It is for self-gratification. It is for sex. It is for excitment. This kind of fervor servers it's own purpose. It doesn't obey rules. It runs amok. You see it on the news everyday, but society cannot hang it's moral and ethical values on me to survive. i do what I must in all ways, and I'm proud of it. The necessity to be myself passes all moral barriers.
When I was 11, I had an episode in my life. I saw my cousin shoot his wife. It wasn't traumatic... but the shock value. I went back into the apartment to collect some things with my dad, because my cousin was in jail. The bed was all bloody. It was there where she had landed after the bullet. She got a .38 to the face.
Blood is the substance that allows any living thing to exist, but blood is blood. I have heard of people drinking each other's blood. They cut each other, and they drink it and it's supposed to be a euphoric feeling. But, blood has no special interest for me.