Cowardice is the sister of panic. I am not afraid of death. I am afraid for my loved ones. I'm afraid of accidents for friends. I'm afraid to look old. I'm afraid of gradual dying, when I have to grab onto something and someone ... 'Our Everything' wrote very correctly: 'My uncle of the most honest rules, when he fell seriously ill ...' Being young, I thought that this was a preamble and nothing more. Now I understand that this is the most important thing in the novel.